Hey hey hey, oooooo-woaaaaah!

Well kiddos, not gonna lie. A lot has been happening. Nicholas & I took our Cobalt friendship to the next level & made the treck to meet up in the real! We hit it off & I can now say that one of my best friends on the board is now one of my best friends out in the world! ^(Sidenote: That's Nicholas. We dress the same apparently!!) ((Sidenote to the sidenote: Monsters V Aliens = HILARIOUS!))

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In other news, I am still single, & am now realizing I am more than okay with this. As I venture deeper into relationships with the opposite sex from potential sexual encounters to just bumming around watching 3D movies, (See above) I have realized that the pool of gentlemen saved within my cell phone are ALL a mess all in their own right. I don't think I have the patience to pick them up off the floor & put them back together just so I can get my 15 minutes to 12 hours of satisfaction. It will ultimately cause more damage than initally projected & I really do not want to deal with this aspect. (I still pine & feel at a loss because although I know that it is not healthy to go down one of these paths, some boys can be very persuasive.) I have discussed this manner of events with Nicholas & he stopped me dead when discussing one particular boy with the simple statement: "Woah wait, I thought this is what you were fighting for!" Is it what I am fighting for? To gain the fulfilment of having this said boy waking up next to me when I slumber, feeling his hot skin when "doing the deed", & having him there to help me fight off my own worst enemy? (myself) I must admit, I do miss the security of knowing that that one boy is all mine & he wants nothing more than to be with me in all the ways he can. I really do miss that part. But having boys devulge that they are heart broken from the past or desperate for anyone's touch at this point just leaves me wondering..why would I even want to bother?

> I am not going to lie though, the thoughts of this one boy consume my cerebellum & I want nothing more than to just be with him & have the satisfaction that he has changed because of me, loves me true, & wants me naked more than anything. That's what keeps this whole circle going round & roundddddd...

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Outside is beautiful in other news. Michigan finally decided that snow was no longer an option. This pleases me greatly.

^ Outside right now!