Changing it up.

Welp, I finally got some sort of balls to tell the guy that I like that I like him. It was a very interesting process for me. I of course, couldn't bring myself to say anything to his face because he still scares me a bit. So, after endless hours of dreaming senarios and waking to see him at work, I was a bit fed up with the whole ordeal. I just simply put:

Hey.

I like you.

I am just too chicken shit to say it to your face at this time, so I use the internet as my backup.

So, you can either do something about it or I suggest you are extra careful with my heart til it all blows over.

BUT until then, I like you, I like you, I like you!

& Then I proceeded to do some more extensive cleaning so I can just go out without a hitch today to do some more shopping.

Am I nervous at all? Right now, no. But I feel it'll creep up on me soon enough. The compulsive fear that my world is going to be caving in around me will seep through my skin and weigh me down for a total of 5 minutes, but it'll feel like the worst 5 minutes of my life.

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I have yet another cold. It is driving me nuts how often I have been getting sick lately. At least I am at the end of this one.

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Wild Cherry Pepsi is the best drink out there. I should probably stop drinking soda all together though to get back into shape for running. >.<

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Robert Pattinson will always be my backup for marriage, I have decided. (Or Shia Labeouf..or Emile Hirsch.) I will always want to wake up to his voice each and everyday as he makes coffee and I refuse to get out of bed because I'll be cold.

Yeah, it'll be good with either my real life boy or celebrity Rob. <3